blogging is a good way to keep track of how my life have been by noting down the things that i do or things that happen but i guess i don't really update much anymore.

it's just that recently i really don't feel like talking much, or elaborating much. i want to pretty much keep to myself. it's probably just another phase that i'm in.


anyway today i cook the whole lunch for mum, bro and myself. it's kind of fun and fulfilling to do that. the best part was when i had to take out all the gills and intestines out of the fish. alright i admit it's my first time doing that so yes, i was screaming and shouting, abit over-dramatise but after one fish i was pretty alright. i mean just look away put the fingers in and pluck out whatever i need to pluck out. haha

sometimes when i'm doing some cooking like this, i will think of the future. every morning i will wake up early to prepare breakfast for hubby, then after that send him off for work before i get all dress up and get out of the house for work as well. at night when he come back, i will have finish cooking the dinner and we can enjoy the night together. i guess it's the idea of cooking for someone special, someone who will enjoy and appreciate the things you do. that's the future...for now, i better hone my cooking skills. hahaha

hmm, i realise that i was a bit stupid sometime back; about 2 things. but i guess it's like a lesson, you experience it, understand and move on. currently i don't know how should i put my thoughts down in black and white. i feel a bit pek chek...especially about that, i just want to get it over and done with.

it's 7:00 AM now