I FEEL SO DEPRESSED. I'M REALLY REALLY SAD AND ANGRY WITH MYSELF.

how can i be so dumb, removing a column means the whole place will collapse. why, why didn't i thought of that. how can i be so dumb.

will i? will i ever be a good interior designer in the future? will i be able to create the space my clients want?

future=uncertainties

i thought listening to piano melody will soothe my highly tense emotions but i'm wrong, i really feel like crying after listening to those melodies. if my mum is not awake now, i will really cry.

marriage d amour reminds me of jc life, reminds me of yh, reminds me of ju, reminds me of amanda. ju will occasionally play marriage d amour for me in sch and i always feel so honour to hear her play. same goes for amanda, but i can never remember the name of the piece which she play. yh reminds me of the college piano melody, it's a pity i lost the file ...

=( i'm really sad, really really sad.

i put in so much effort, why the teachers be able to see?

the tutors once said something about feeling for your work.

i guess i really want to be an interior designer after all, and this project, i really put in the efforts, so much efforts, but because of my carelessness and stupidity, i actually remove the column. thanks god that i dicover it today, if it's during critique when the lectuerers discover, i will break down on the spot. imagine today after i foudn out the news, i already am on the verge of crying and i feel really lousy. imagine during critique, in front of all the lecturers, i will really breakdown.

there is so many things on my mind, sometimes i question myself, what is my purpose in life, am i really trying hard enough ...

i still can't find a job for ITP, and next week is the deadline ... god ... please just shine some light on my path.

i wish i can hear someone play the piano for me ... it's just simply wonderful to be able to have the panist dedicate the tune to you and watching how their hands glide over the piano like magic...

i miss them so so so much.

omg i cannot take it anymore, the tears keep threatening to fall.

it's 9:05 AM now