today is a boring day, however there are some interesting things that happen.

last night i set my alarm to 10am but apparently this morning i didn't hear my alarm and only woke up at 11am. so in the afternoon, i went and attend a company event.

today is not only the launch of a product but also the signing ceremony for this company and genius mind. so for the genius mind, they have a free test that tells you your character from your thumbs fingerprint and while registering for it. the lady ask, " are you from scap?" i'm like...1 second stun, pause, take a closer look at the lady, find her familiar but couldn't really place in into any of the name so i gave up and ask, "what's your name?'. she said, "ling fang" then i'm like oh!!! pause, look closer, doesn't look like the one i saw years ago. the one in front of my looks totally different from what i remember, she looks prettier! no wonder i couldn't recognize her. haha, i end up feeling quite pai seh for having to ask her name. >.< class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">impression of him is that he's very sociable. talking to him is fun and there's no awkward pause trying to find a topic to talk on. he taught me quite a number of things such as the 7up story and how to hold a conversation. he's very helpful (:

hard to find guys who are like this and i really like to make friends with this kind of people. fun, optimistic, confident, interactive, helpful, modest, others before self. when was the last i met one?

it's 7:01 AM now

Friday, June 26, 2009

Ok i'm finally here to blog since i'm stuck at my report writing. anyway there's a lot of things i can blog about as long as i remember it while typing.

anyway i went and have my specs done yesterday. i want to get the half frame at first but then the aunty told me that because my lens will be very thick doing that kind of frame isn't ideal. in the end i have no choice but to take back those full frame specs but this time round i choose a more rectangular and smaller one. that's the disappointing part about the specs issue but i'm really happy that the whole frame and lens cost only 170 bucks. so much lesser than what i had thought it would have been. so all i can do now is to wait for the arrival of the specs (:

i ought to go down to salon...maybe tomorrow morning? but i need to attend an event in the afternoon. haiz, what a waste of my time. anyway my hair needs more layering, it looks so dull and plain in all the photos, it should be given more volume and waves (: maybe i can go down to bugis after the event tomorrow? to buy my flats, i have been saying it since eons ago!

anyway i have forgotten half of what i have intend to blog.

so..back to the report on BOTANICAL DRAWINGS AND HOW IT INSPIRE ARCHITECTURE.

for god sake, what the hell is it

it's 7:07 AM now

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I have so many things to blog about...I will be back.

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I hope you are making good progress on your reports

that's what our rwp teacher wrote in the email. Shit...i'm not making any progress at all, damn and i am not feeling nervous. instead i'm wasting me time playing games....

time to make myself guilty

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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

If i know that it is going to cost me 21.5 instead of 15 i wouldn't have go, not worth of the time spend and the company ain't that great either.

It's almost half of the second week and I haven't really touch my works. I need a lot of self-discipline and focus.

TOD SEMINAR [nearly done]
RWP RESEARCH
TOD JOURNAL
~~INTECH JOURNAL~~
~~KNOW YOUR RIGHTS~~
INTECH DOSSIER
COMPLETE MODEL

If i don't rush all out this holiday I really don't know when can i find time to do it when school starts.

I guess after all it was a right choice to reject the modeling opportunity . ~~Some people are meant to be phoenix and some people are just meant to be sparrow.~~

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Saturday, June 13, 2009

Today went Sushi Tei at Vivo with my siblings and I realised that I LOVE EATING UDON!!!!

Next time if anyone is going to makan jap food, please call me along. I want to eat udon, I cannot stop thinking about it now!!!

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

How shall I start?

It's a pity I can't type Chinese with my laptop, because I think certain feelings can be convey through better via Chinese.

Anyway had a good chat with Ben a.k.a my twin brother at work because we got the brother and sister look but in actual fact he is 22 years old, 3 years older than me. haha. It's really fun talking to him, feels so comfortable.

Doing host is even more tired in my opinion because I have to keep standing there like statue that smiles to passer-by. The worse part is when there's very few customers so the chances of getting to walk here and there is damn little and my muscles ache so much.

Zhi Zhu Chang Le.

It's true and I had thought that all along I carry this kind of thought within me but actually I realise that there is still something that I really yearn for. I'm going to be 19 soon, few more months...but there's so much things that I haven't done. Ben was telling me to go for it, do the things that I want to do.

If only Ben is working morning shift more often. Haiz working 3 days next week because I need time to do my work but partly I guess I was trying to run away from work. Every day I will count down to the end of my shift. Work is not that bad but I feel no passion for it. I need to hang on. I need to continue to work. Guess certain people makes me feel more optimistic about working. That will be m "LAO PA" a.k.a Eric. HaHa sometime back he become my lao pa and I become his nv er. HaHaHa. Next will be Richard. Next will be "Cutie", thanks for his hugs every now and then. It bring shine to my day. It's a pity Jeff left already. Even though he always makes fun of me jokingly but it really makes work fun. It's a double pity that Dragon left too, together with Jeff. Even though I didn't really like him at first but after getting to know him better my whole impression of him changed.

=( I guess people walk in and out of your life, you just have to learn how to keep hang of them unfortunately that's something that I'm not good at.

Sometimes I just wish that I click straight on with a person right from the start and not when things are ending soon. That way the happy times would have been longer. Cherish is the key but sometimes holding on for too long and too hard is so tiring. I haven been through that and I doubt I have the strength to do that again in near future. For that I used 1 and a half year just to get over it. It's sad that cherishing something actually bring pain and sadness but I guess certain point in life, one have to learn how to let go.

After all I may just be the one that really cherish it while the other party isn't doing so. I'ts kind of stupid. I guess I really did change after all these years.

I'm starting to wonder why am I getting so soulful these days...

it's 3:59 AM now

Saturday, June 6, 2009

It's been sometime since I wrote some reflective post. Does yesterday one counts?

I have been more or less numb to things happening nowadays. I no longer feel for things the way I do in the past.

What is consider joy?

I don't know.

I haven't feel joy deep down in my heart for a super long period.

At times I really wonder who will be there for me if any thing went terribly wrong when the day is night and night is still night.

Why do I question this?

It's because i don't really keep in contact with people who are in my past. I don't know how to strike a conversation and I don't know how to keep it on-going. It always seems so awkward. Of course there are quite a number of people that I really want to continue to maintain friendship but maybe I'm not trying hard enough? maybe I think too much that I am no longer someone important to them? It have reduce to simply Hi...*long pause* How are you...*long long pause*...Take care...Bye.

At times, I lay on the bed at night and wonder about how great we use to be together. talking about everything under the sun and the joy that radiates around us.

Je vous manque

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Friday, June 5, 2009

Today is my critique. It's finally rainbow after rain. After weeks of lack of sleep, unbalanced meals, serious mood swings and hard work, I finally made it. It's ironic how I always struggle like mad during the term but when critique is over, I realized that it's not that difficult after all.

I agree with what Faris (lecturer) said today. He said something about having to really feel for design...that's when one will become a truly outstanding designer. I admit that when I first chose this course I never really expect something like this. I have totally no idea what design course is all about.

Anyway the upcoming terms will be more stress with deadlines pack right behind each other. And then there's the ITP and the best thing is, we have go and find a design company our self.

For now, this 3 weeks of holiday, I should really just stick to working, finish my model, clear all term 1 tod journal and intech journal and do at least 60% of intech dossier and working out.

I said I want to quit after this 3 weeks but I'm not so sure. I said I want to cut some slack and not work for 5-6 days per week for this holiday but I'm not so sure. Everything revolves around money. Now that _________________________, I should use this 3 weeks to try and earn more money and save more but with the school works to do... I don't know.

I know I need to keep myself disciplined and not do what i am doing today, sitting in front of the laptop whole day just because i thought I can relax after term1. Tomorrow working ... Anyway that photograph contact me again and ask me for dinner tonight and shoots on Sunday. I really dislike holding a convo with him because he makes me feel really really uncomfortable. I know ang mohs are more open-minded but I sorry to say that I don't like that. Don't use words like daddy, dear, you know what to wear right this kind of things. I hate it when it come out from a person like him. It gives me goosebumps. I'm intending to push away Sunday shoots as well. I know I have been waiting so long for a chance in modelling but after thinking hard...I realise that right now I am content with my life and I have more than enough things on my hand to juggle. Tonight...I should really starts on my model and finish it by today. Tomorrow after I come back from work, I shall work on intech journal since it's the easiest, all copying and some drawings. I shall give myself 2 days to work on intech journal. Starting from Monday, I shall work on my intech dossier and tod journal not to forget that there is the tod seminar to work on.

I should quit playing RC even though today is my 3rd time playing. Alright later I need to send an sms to Est and ask her not to bring hard disk. Because I don't want Sims 2 to distract me.

On something slightly more personal... it's amazing how holidays come so quickly. the first week I find myself not being able to get over him but over the course of 6 weeks, I start to see and realize and understand that it's a bit ridiculous to keep liking him since it's really just rubbish. Glad that the 3 week break is coming so that I can get over him for good. No point getting into dan lian. It's tiring and frustrating.

Stupid girl.

Maybe Sunday I should take a trip to bugis to pray and buy myself a pair of flats (: Then again, Bugis is damn pack on weekends. But I will be working on all weekdays next week! Hmm...see how first.

And I am finally going to get myself a new pair of specs after damn long. My current specs have been with me for more than 3 yrs! I see 300 bucks plus flying off. But at least I get to see clearer since the current specs have way too many scratches!

This is my model... not completed yet. I left the frame in school and brought back the wall only because that is the part that is not complete. Will upload more photos again soon (:

YU GUO TIAN QING YI TIAO CAI HONG.

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