I do not know why I can't laugh out.

I manage to get a job but I'm feeling so gloomy.

Haiz, I shall not go into details but I will tell you guys where I will be working soon; the shop haven't open yet but it's at Vivo city.

Anyway hmm ... HAIZ

Oh and it's a dining cafe/restaurant/pub...yes PUB

haiz

it's 1:52 AM now

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

26/11

I know the picture is super no link
Ok, I am so SHAG.

Shag to the extent that I am living behind time ... I keep mistaking the dates, day and week.

Anyway today during CRS, we got our grade and I got DISTINCTION!!! Like thank god despite so many 'erm' during the assessment.

And Ms Tan said, yes she is a born leader in the sense that she is also serious in class and hardworking and focus [something like that]. I'm like What?!?!?!

HaHa, er, that's the me only when I am in OC AND CRS.

Anyway I am not really looking towards this Discussion Cafe thingy because the 'shadows' from the previous OC power point presenation stays with me.

I'm dreading it, as a matter of fact.

Went down to Bugis to print our work ... as a result I'm even more tired!!!

Ok, I shall not go into the details.

sleeping emoticon Pictures, Images and Photos

it's 4:58 AM now

Friday, November 21, 2008

22/11

I'm not emo-ing, I am just stating the facts.

When I keep quiet and not crack jokes, they say I am emo.

When I am cracking jokes and talking crap, they say I am high.

When they are low and I am high, they give me faces.

When I do not want to talk they keep saying emo and I end up having to put on a big smile and say oh nothing, I am tired.

=(

They say they think that they are a little overboard in teasing me and all, I say it's okay and end up laughing away.

What do you expect me to say, oh yes, you guys are going overboard. STOP IT!

No, I can't say that, can I and then you guys just give me attitude again.

When you guys are stress by the projects, I'm the one that gets shouting, attitude and more shouting from you guys.

What do I do, I have to pretend happily smiling as though those actions have no impact on me.

When I am stress, what can I do?

YOU TELL ME!!!

I am a human too, you can't expect me to be smiling everyday ...

I realize that I need some time alone, away from the daily life and go to somewhere peaceful.

Damn, why am I the leader for the CRS group. Why!!!

I chase for days before I get the topic and now I have to chase again for the issue.

Tell ME WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL SO RESPONSIBLE TO THE PROJECT, WHY CAN'T I BE AS LAID BACK AS THE OTHERS. U TELL ME.

it's 8:47 PM now

21/11

I AM OH MY FREAKING TIRED.

I shall update on the dinner tonight if I'm in a _ _ _ _ _ _ mood next few days.

Too tired now.

Sian tomorrow is damn sian ... nanade so many meetings to rush to. Like wth, damn!

Getting too high in class nowadays ... gotta cool down.

KK, TIME TO SLEEP (: Like finally, damn!!!

it's 7:48 AM now

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

19/11

I'm here to blog even though I do not know who is reading. HaHa

Hmm, being rushing project this week and I am tired ...

Just now when I was still in the studio, I indirectly spoil a table together with another classmate. HAHAIZHAHA, damn funny ... haha but then it's really not our fault cos there's already something wrong with the table in the first place. Thanks goodness my legs wasn't there.

Been listening to Lies and Haru Haru by Big Bang (: Nice

Okay, what else ... hmm

I want to sleep but HAIZ ...

Hmm, what else, nothing bah

NIGHTZ (:

What else, oh ya, my brother is finishing his 3 months in Tekong sooooooooooooooooooooon !!! Yipee

it's 6:19 AM now

Monday, November 17, 2008

17/11

I hope that in this 3 weeks time, I will not leave a wrong impression for them because when the stress level gets too high and your friends are there/not there that's when you carve for another human being who will lend you a shoulder to lean on and be there for you regardless of what. a bit shallow but still ...

damn, --------------------- send my heart pumping and my face turns red =X

it's 5:59 AM now

Saturday, November 15, 2008

16/11

Tatty Drawing bear Pictures, Images and Photos

I'm here to blog because I'm restless ...

I mean really R-E-S-T-L-E-S-S!

>.< Hmm ... I am counting down to the day I have my critique, the day holiday come, the day i am going to attend my lecturer's wedding in a church, the day i board plane for the first time, the day i arrive in a country that's a little lot farther than those i ever went, the day i manage to find some odd jobs and get pay, the day i ... ?

Yup, that's my summary for the next few weeks ... I'm excited about the wedding part .. it's going to be my first time seeing the bride wearing white gown.

HaHa

UPDATE ---

Hmm, jsut saw one of my course mate blog, whoa, he finish the assignment due next next week ... god, he's just super.

I'm slacking so much ... way too much. Feel like kicking myself awake.

There used to be someone who really motivated me but that's all in the past.

Moreover, never depends on a person for motivation, you will die when that person went off. I'm serious.

Tomorrow I shall go early to school and get my ass stick to the chair and start working in a nice and quite place with air con (:

Hopes it doesn't get creepy >.<

Then again ... please say all the best to me okay, haha.

it's 10:46 PM now

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

12/11

Happy Birthday Brother ... he's away for his 3day2night field camp =X

I'm here to complain, i'm extremely displease by the attitude of the people around me. Maybe it's my own attitude or it's them, I don't know.

BUT I do know that 3 more weeks excluding this week and the term will end. In the meantime there is A LOT OF ASSIGNMENTS AND DEADLINES PACK TOGETHER.

I'm tired of the so call friends around me. I want a sincere friend by my side, even if it means 1 only.

As I had said in my previous post, even till the end of the marathon and i am all alone, I will brave it on and never stop running towards my goal!

Give me the strength.Give me the willpower.Give me the energy to carry on.

the end

it's 11:50 PM now

11/11

I'm not really angry. It's just that sometimes I wonder why people can't bend a little and think instead of just saying follow the one given ... because obviously there's something wrong with it.

I'm not angry, just a little annoyed.

it's 3:36 AM now

Friday, November 7, 2008

8/11

Hmm, it's a weekend once more.

After reading my course mates' blog, I decide to stop slacking and get started on the work I have to do so that I can focus on Auto cad next week.

I have a serious love-hate relationship with Auto cad.

Anyway life have been already , well, not really because there are some things that happen here and that but I manage to pull through.

Life is like a marathon and your friends are there to cheer you on.
But I think ultimately even if at the end when everyone leaves you and you are alone, you can still pull through. Or rather I'm refering to myself.

However, thanks god that I stop having those weird dreams that disrupt my sleep as I have erase the cause of the dreams. I do admit that resentment builds up in me but today is a beautiful day. Let everything flow away like the leaves falling from the tree

Hmm ... I guess that's about it. LIFE STILL GO ON AND THE DEADLINES ARE STILL THERE!

HaHa

Gotta work hard.

So do you, whoever it is who is reading my blog (:

love bear hugssss Pictures, Images and Photos

it's 8:06 PM now

Monday, November 3, 2008

3/11

Sometimes I really wonder who are the true friends around me.

Is it the one that were once best of friends but no longer kept in contact.

Is it the one that's with you almost half of your day every week because we happens to be in the same course?

Is it the one that shoot at you occasionally but become especially nice to you on some special day.

Is it the one that you seldom keep in contact but occasionally still chat.

Is it the one that's always encouraging you and cheer you up.

Is it the one that's just around you but never say anything.

I'm not really happy.

I am just living on each day and struggle not to tear when I'm hurt.

Now I know, I'm still so fragile deep down in my heart.

I will pull through, it's okay.

it's 12:10 AM now

Saturday, November 1, 2008

2/11

Today by right should be one of my special day. But by left, it's not.

Why can't they try to 'qian jiu' me a little. I need to take photos, I need a camera. I need their co-operation. Why do they not seems to get it. Why is it that I am also frowning, you asked me but have you even think of it instead of just asking or scolding or nagging. I want to complete my assignment. I do not want to wait until last minute like last term

Nvm, shall not shed a single teardrop today.

Thanks for those who sent the wishes to me.
You guys are love.

it's 5:20 PM now