been thinking a lot, well i guess long train rides have it's own pros and cons.
i really admit with the quiz result sometime back, i really ~~yearn for something i can't commit~~

if i ever in anyway ---- ---, i'm sorry, truly sorry, i did it for --- own good. i don't want to ---- ---.

now? now ... when for the first time i really really really ---- it, i have to suppress it.

life is ironic, don't you agree?

get a life...it's time to get a life ...

on a side note >> http://blogskins.com/info/294640
haha onion head! but it's a little too cute and happy to me.

it's 7:43 AM now

Thursday, August 27, 2009

i've been thinking ... why can't everybody be happy? why do thing have to happen that make the whole mood change. feeling worn out physically and emotionally, if only i can curl up in my bed sipping a cup of hot milk or under the sky, watching the stars with nobody else but me.

it's 6:23 AM now

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i am so so so HAPPY (: just found one of a dress which my sis brought and i totally heart it!!!

it cover the flaw i need to cover and it's so comfy. even though it's sleeveless and it show my whole arm which make it very obvious that i am skinny but heck la... my body, my style of dressing, it's all mine. if you don't like it, then blindfold ur eyes.

I hate people and even friends who goes, OMG SO SKINNY, STILL WEAR LIKE THIS. VERY DISGUSTING LE. damn u la, it's not as though i wan to be skinny de, but since this is the way i am then stop rubbing salt in the wound.

it took me 17 years to realize that i am actually pretty. maybe not those big eye, small lips, sexy/sweet/cute type of girl but at least, in my eye, i finally accept myself as who i am.

to those who can't accept me as who i am, then scram, i don't need you by my side either.

it's 9:28 PM now

Saturday, August 22, 2009

i really wonder why... is it my fault? ~~why is it always like this?~~

it's 5:30 AM now

Saturday, August 15, 2009

i'm back here again, simply because there's a lot of emotions running through my head. maybe i should stop listening to songs like that.

maybe i should have go with yy when she ask me whether i can make it for the lady gaga event. maybe i will get to see them. it's being so long. i miss them. but things will never be the same again.

----

when things get from simple to complicated, it's human nature to run isn't it?

actually crying is not a weakness. it's another way to let all the emotions out rather than bottling it within me. i'm feeling terrible now.

it's 6:23 AM now

Sunday, August 9, 2009

at the end of the day i'm always coming back to this place when i really reach the max depth ... i wrote verything on the wall yesterday and i guess i don't want to repeat it here. every time i see it, the pain worsen. it'ss funny how i manage to feel such pain for things like this, i mean it's not the end of the world, it's not like i just broke up with boyfriend(nah, i'm still single), it's not like etc. so i sort of sort out the emotions just now...

after submission, i just want to party, i want to put on contacts, put on makeup, put on the nicest outfit and the highest heels and just party. then again i know it's impossible.

but it wouldn't harm to have such thoughts once in a while, right?

it's 7:14 PM now