You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

Being afraid that you may be prevented from achieving your hopes and dreams is making you anxious and nervous. As a dreamer your ideas can at times move into the realm of fantasy and you could be following that so called illusive dream.

I feel like a fool .. in fact I am a fool.

I have so much to say but ultimately, one have to avoid showing too much emotions because people will always judge you by what you say; how you express yourself.

On a happier note for other people:

I saw a guy proposing to a girl yesterday at ECP. It's so romantic. The perfect sky and perfect sea colour with gentle breeze ...

it's 6:19 AM now

Thursday, February 26, 2009

shi jian hui cong dan yi qie
wo ye yuan yi rang shi jian chong dan zhe fen qing
zhe fen yuan ben jiu bu gai chun zai de qing
qi ge li bai ...

it's 7:11 PM now

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I saw 2 beautiful rainbows today.

It's so near yet so far, so real yet so vague?

But anyway, guess I'm really lucky and happy because it's been a long time since I last saw a rainbow.

Anyway tomorrow is the time to enjoy ... going bugis with my clique for shopping of lecturer's presents before heading to East Coast for BBQ.

As much as I wish for ______, I just wish that I can unwind the ______.

Anyway I have successfully move on to the second year of Interior Design.

I try so hard to be soulful today but i guess today isn't really a day to be doing reflection

it's 6:03 AM now

Monday, February 23, 2009

To see a�bicycle in your dream, indicates that you need to devote time to leisurely pursuits and recreation.

To see your crush in your dream, represents your current infatuation with him or her.

To dream that you get wet from the rain, indicates cleansing from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal.

To dream that you are cold, indicates that you are experiencing a breakthrough in some area in your life. Alternatively, you may be feeling isolated or emotionally restrained. Your sense of coldness could reflect your feelings about a lover or a certain person. The dream may also occur as a result of your immediate environment in which you are really feeling cold.

To have a dream that takes place at night, represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. There are some issues in your life that you are facing, but are not too clear. You should put the issues aside so you can clear your head and come back to it later. Alternatively, night may be synonymous with death, rebirth, reflection, and new beginnings

To dream that you are tired, suggests that you are feeling emotionally drained and stressed. Dreams about being tired usually reflect how you really feel in your waking state.

To see friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge these rejected aspects of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.

To dream that something is too heavy, symbolizes your burdens, work load and responsibilities. You are carry too much on your shoulders and need to� prioritize. Take a break and lighten up.

it's 5:31 PM now

Sunday, February 22, 2009

what's the difference between:


what are the chances that the one he likes is her

compare to

what are the odds that the one he likes her

i hate to decrypt such things. especially when it's post by someone who ...

it's 10:54 PM now

22/2

Feeling really tired right now.

I guess my mood towards work revolves around the colleuges that are present.

But today is good, the first time i feel so.



i think i have more or less sort out my thoughts regarding him. i don't expect much, just friends will do (:

going to rest st home on mon and tue, wed still need to go back to school and carry back all the works which i have no idea where should i put in and after that, i'm off for work.

Things to take note of: ask D regarding Friday shift, whether can be shift to morning or not?

other than that, i guess there's nothing much, going to sleep soon, too tired

it's 4:59 AM now

Friday, February 20, 2009

=(

Feeling this way because of work. haiz, i have trouble expressing my thoughts to my friends and i thought that i can turn to blogging but i'm wrong.

i just want to cry my heart out. btw, nothing major happen, it's just that there are some psychological barriers in me that i have to conquer.

i need to find the burning passion in work, the feeling that i feel whenever it's time to go home i need it to last from the start of work to end of work.

haiz..i feel so hollow right now :(

my feets hurt ...





life feels a little shitty right now =(

it's 8:59 AM now

Thursday, February 19, 2009

20/2

feeling very pek chek right now!!! i guess after this post i am going to bed frist and wake up early tomorrow to complete my dossier!

sucks, i hope i wouldn't switch off the alarm and went back to sleep

it's 8:35 AM now

i'm really worried for a friend of mine right now

i hope everything will be ok

it's 4:41 AM now

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

let's talk about happier stuffs, it's a bit hard because i'm feeling a little down right now and listening to song like ceng jing xin tong isn't helping much either.

anyway i really looks forward to next week BBQ ... really ...


i got nothing else to say

it's 5:42 AM now

why do we have to jiang yi qi

it's 2:46 AM now

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

17/2

Really addicted to this song sang by Celina Jade. The rock version of 曾经心痛.

路上行人匆匆過 沒有人會回頭看一眼
我只是個流著淚 走在大街上的陌生人 

*如今我對你來說 也只不過是個陌生人
看見我走在雨裡 你也不會再為我心疼*

#曾經心痛為何變成陌生 我只想要和你一起飛翔
管它地久天長 只要曾經擁有 我是真的這麼想 #

+曾經心痛為何變成陌生 愛情就像人生不能重來
這些道理我懂 可是真正面對 教我如何放得下+

Repeat * # +

it's 7:30 AM now

Monday, February 16, 2009

check out my design blog (",)

http://looking-at-k-designs.blogspot.com

it's 8:09 PM now

16/2

I Finally Found Someone lyrics

I finally found someone
That knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
That makes me feel complete
It started over coffe
We strated out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin

This time is different
And it's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it though
My favouite line was
"Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind
I apologise, baby that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear
Isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

...

I seriously wonder what's with me nowadays, i kept chancing upon love songs.

*shake head*

anyway i have been really tired, haven't been able to get much sleep because although the major submission over there's still some other minor stuffs to settle...

it's 6:42 AM now

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Bonnie Raitt-I can't make you love me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me

Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

I chanced by this song on the net ... i wouldn't give up just yet?

The version sang by George Michael is the best ... so beautiful yet sad

it's 8:34 AM now

Saturday, February 14, 2009

14/2

Today I start working and it happens to be a Valentine Day as well.

I am feeling damn shag right now, been standing straight for 6 hours.

it's 3:32 AM now

Friday, February 13, 2009

13/2

Today after CRS, I went down with my friends to my future workplace. Well i turn out that I will be starting work tomorrow >.< class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">February, I will give up on him because it seems like he already like someone? But somehow he always seems to hook up eye contact with me? I don't know and I just pour all my uncertainties to her and she just told me one simple thing that makes me smile.

She told me not to let go so easily, at least even if I am to let go, at least tell him I like him. Somehow it seems so true that I should not give up so easily. Even in the end if he really does have another person in mind, at least I know that I once have the hope that the person is me.

I am just glad that he is going for the BBQ as well. I am really happy about it.

(:

it's 4:52 AM now

Thursday, February 12, 2009

12/2

i just want to know who he likes.

copy from my friend's blog "sometimes i really hate the fact that he matters so much to me."

I totally don't feel like studying for my gems quiz tomorrow!

=X

Gotta remember to bring dictionary for tomorrow CRS >.<

it's 7:48 AM now

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

12/2

I guess I'm not mentally prepared in receiving such news but oh well

What is life without hope and dreams.
Without hope and dreams life will be oh so boring.

But then again, knowing that your hope is crash does makes me feel ???

I told myself that I will let it all go by the end of February. Why? Because after that it will be a long holiday of 7 weeks whereby I will be working (:

Should be able to earn enough during this period and pay for my second year semester 1 fees.

At the same time, I can use this time to think about any thing and every thing except ___.

(:

it's 11:23 PM now

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

10/2

My knight in shining amour???

HaHaHa, don't ask me where I get this notion but it just pops into my mind... find it kind of funny. HaHa.

Hmm, will not be posting about the critique of school work, that will be done in my design blog instead.

This year V day is on a Sat. Somehow I just wish that it can be on a weekday instead.

it's 6:09 AM now

Friday, February 6, 2009

7/2

I'm left with

• autodesk viz mapping and walkthrough
• intech mockup wall
• storyboard

I have to finish my mapping before I can do my storyboard.
Walkthrough will be done after i finish my storyboard
Lastly will be intech mockup wall

And i am penniless right now. Wanted to go to the bank today but I'm really tired.

Anyway I haven't done the final calculation for this project but it's really a lot.



WO BU GAN XIN!!!

i wonder why is it that every time ... haiz, i realize i hate typing long stories nowadays... nvm, i shall keep it to myself then.



Been listening to this song from the anime BLEACH ... [the english translation]

Life is Like a Boat
Vocals: Rie fu

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin’ and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on your way
The waves would guide you thru another day

I’m breathing in the distance, as if I’ve become transparent
It seemed to be the dark, but I was merely blindfolded

I offer my prayers and wait for a new day
To the end of the sea that shines vividly

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People’s hearts move and want to slip out
The moon in its new cycle brings along boats again

And every time I see your face,
the oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I…. can see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

The journey is still continuing, on the calm days, too
The moon in its new cycle begins to shine on boats again

I offer my prayers and wait for a new day
To the end of the sea that shines vividly

And every time I see your face,
the oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Rowing the boat of destiny
The waves assault us
One after the next
But that’s a wonderful journey, too
Any one of them is a wonderful journey

it's 8:58 PM now

6//6

hmm ... i just want to say something but i do not know what i want to say

one thing i like about Korean shows is the romance part. sometimes you just wonder why ... ... haiz

anyway i think if i ever see such thing again, my heart will break

it's 3:49 AM now

Thursday, February 5, 2009

6/2

Today is the submission day and also the day that I really cry my heart out. I guess my sister was really shock by me.

Don't ask me regarding this matter. I will tell if I want or when I want. Right now I just want to say that life is so ...

I admit I really want to find someone to talk to but ... how should i start it. The people that I can talk to is either family, school clique or jc friends.

Family is out and school clique is out.

JC friend? I'm sorry if I offend you but seriously they do not know what I'm going through now. Even students of SP will not understand if they are not from Interior Design or other Design course. That is why sometimes I feel very lonely. I have no one to talk to, one who will really understands. It's ok, it doesn't mean that I want you guys to talk to me all of a sudden...right now I just want to finish everything and start working. The materials cost me a bomb.

it's 10:11 PM now

Sunday, February 1, 2009

2/2

i know i shouldn't be here to blog but well, i feel so ~~~~ now so ya. Anyway I decide to come to studio early today. Apparently it's freezing here because my fingers are feeling damn cold and I already set it to 20 degree celsius. I don't dare to go and set the temperature now because there's someone else in the class and that someone else is that one that makes me feel so ~~~~. Anyway the other day K drew a portrait of me in class because he's bored. But the end product is really beautiful, too nice to be true and it look exactly like me(it should be). HaHa, maybe I will scan it some other time and post in here. In the meantime my fingers are really cold, I feel like going to the toliet to warm myself along the way but .... sian, ok, fine I will see how first. Darn, I can't believe I wear like this to school today. Make me feel so yuck! =X

it's 5:08 PM now