Today is my critique. It's finally rainbow after rain. After weeks of lack of sleep, unbalanced meals, serious mood swings and hard work, I finally made it. It's ironic how I always struggle like mad during the term but when critique is over, I realized that it's not that difficult after all.

I agree with what Faris (lecturer) said today. He said something about having to really feel for design...that's when one will become a truly outstanding designer. I admit that when I first chose this course I never really expect something like this. I have totally no idea what design course is all about.

Anyway the upcoming terms will be more stress with deadlines pack right behind each other. And then there's the ITP and the best thing is, we have go and find a design company our self.

For now, this 3 weeks of holiday, I should really just stick to working, finish my model, clear all term 1 tod journal and intech journal and do at least 60% of intech dossier and working out.

I said I want to quit after this 3 weeks but I'm not so sure. I said I want to cut some slack and not work for 5-6 days per week for this holiday but I'm not so sure. Everything revolves around money. Now that _________________________, I should use this 3 weeks to try and earn more money and save more but with the school works to do... I don't know.

I know I need to keep myself disciplined and not do what i am doing today, sitting in front of the laptop whole day just because i thought I can relax after term1. Tomorrow working ... Anyway that photograph contact me again and ask me for dinner tonight and shoots on Sunday. I really dislike holding a convo with him because he makes me feel really really uncomfortable. I know ang mohs are more open-minded but I sorry to say that I don't like that. Don't use words like daddy, dear, you know what to wear right this kind of things. I hate it when it come out from a person like him. It gives me goosebumps. I'm intending to push away Sunday shoots as well. I know I have been waiting so long for a chance in modelling but after thinking hard...I realise that right now I am content with my life and I have more than enough things on my hand to juggle. Tonight...I should really starts on my model and finish it by today. Tomorrow after I come back from work, I shall work on intech journal since it's the easiest, all copying and some drawings. I shall give myself 2 days to work on intech journal. Starting from Monday, I shall work on my intech dossier and tod journal not to forget that there is the tod seminar to work on.

I should quit playing RC even though today is my 3rd time playing. Alright later I need to send an sms to Est and ask her not to bring hard disk. Because I don't want Sims 2 to distract me.

On something slightly more personal... it's amazing how holidays come so quickly. the first week I find myself not being able to get over him but over the course of 6 weeks, I start to see and realize and understand that it's a bit ridiculous to keep liking him since it's really just rubbish. Glad that the 3 week break is coming so that I can get over him for good. No point getting into dan lian. It's tiring and frustrating.

Stupid girl.

Maybe Sunday I should take a trip to bugis to pray and buy myself a pair of flats (: Then again, Bugis is damn pack on weekends. But I will be working on all weekdays next week! Hmm...see how first.

And I am finally going to get myself a new pair of specs after damn long. My current specs have been with me for more than 3 yrs! I see 300 bucks plus flying off. But at least I get to see clearer since the current specs have way too many scratches!


This is my model... not completed yet. I left the frame in school and brought back the wall only because that is the part that is not complete. Will upload more photos again soon (:

YU GUO TIAN QING YI TIAO CAI HONG.

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