6th week of the 7 weeks of holiday is drawing to a close.

Next week will be the last week of school.

Let's see ... what will happen when school starts:

• have to fret about what to wear everyday
• have to bring the laptop, battery and charger that total up to 3kg.
• sleepless night
• new teacher
• new classroom layout
• new gems class that require me to interact with strangers
• sleepless night
• lots of coffee
• haiz ... seeing him

i just got to keep my cool and think in a highly positive regarding the last point.

however i must admit that he's really the type of guy i'm looking for.

• tall
• just the right size
• bad guy look
• serious
• quiet for most of the times but when it's time to play, he will play
• character wise...i have no idea, i only talk to him once in the whole year and that was before he become my eye candy ... hahaha, irony

you know how some girls go for the look?

for me ... i don't need a [insert handsome actor's name] super dashing person, character wise is very important.

nice and caring ... that's enough to make me like him.

anyway i want to cut my hair, but i don't know what hairstyle i want, i just feel like stepping into the salon and tell the hairdresser to cut any style.

haiz...anyway after working so hard for a month, my salary is only $700.40. how awesome can that be.

if i buy a pair of new specs...half of my salary can be kiss goodbye. like wth, i wonder how am i going to earn enough in time to pay this semester school fees.

damn it.

anyway saw siew huai the other day while walking along the passage to take the train bound for joo koon. actually she saw me first. haha, so nice to see her after so long.

anyway the other day i saw one of the ogl from nathan. and today i saw another pj guy from the same batch.

but honestly speaking all the memories of jc is slowly fading off, not into emptiness but maybe to somewhere safe in my mind? it's amazing how time flies and how some friendships come and go. friendships that's once so strong but it's becoming weak as a strand of bee hoon that may break at any moment ... then again, so what if the weak link is still there, somehow awkwardness always settles in even when two come together.

no doubt in the past one year i was still missing those people badly, thinking why can't our friendship remain the same but i think after one year, i have more or less mature... or at least time wash away the heartache. it's not that i don't miss them now but it's different. no longer will i be wondering why can't we talk like we use to, why can't we joke like we use to and all the other stuffs...

but no matter what, those people still holds a special place in my heart... because their presence had make me chose to stay in pjc and let me happily enjoy my first year in jc.

you may or may not understand what i'm talking about but as long as i understand ... that's all that matters.

it's 6:46 AM now