I'm not having doubts about myself.

It's just that I am being so grumpy these whole week with lots of frustrations as well. Maybe it's the problem with period.I don't know.

I don't feel like smiling.

I'm sure all of you don't like to be shout at by people, especially your friends. Even though they are your friends or they don't mean it but it still piss me off and hurts a little.

In the first place if you don't mean it that means you wouldn't be shouting. Enough excuse about being joking.

HELLO, shouting is in no way related to joking. I don't shout at my friends. Nope, I don't, not even if I am angry!

Fuck you, I'm also a human and I have feelings. Don't you tell me that you like having people shouting in your face because if you like then tell me and I will shout at you everyday!

Another incident happens in the studio. If you don't mean to say it then don't even joke about it if you know that after that you have to apologies. Even though I didn't quite catch what you said but it's definitely something unpleasant.

I know my face turn black easily and it's so difficult having to keep smiling and pretend that everything is alright and I'm not hurt by the comments.

I don't want to be the happy-go-lucky, crazy loud girl to be that close with you guys. It's tiring!

The worse of all is that I can't find anyone that I can turn to for a pair of listening ears.

No one to talk to ...